Being Epileptic... Within this past month I had epileptic seizures. I usually call them fits. It is hard to deal with them because you jerk, choke and have moments when you are there jerking but can't or hardly can respond to anyone. My solution is to use my eyes to reply. The blink that I am still there but not allright at all. It is a new situation for me. I did hit my head twice within two to three weeks and ever since I suffer from seizures. I can feel them comming most of the time. And a Paramedic tonight told me that those symptoms were called Aura. I learnt something and of course I did google it to know about it more. My dilema is to know how to manage those fits. It is also to be educated about epilepsy and to learn to deal with it. A new curve in my way to tackle. At the moment apart for grabbing everything near me, when I am on the floor, having harsh 'spams', the jerks, difficulty to breathe and bitting my tongue so hard that it feels I am going to stay stiff and unable to react again, salivating like a dog, eyes half opened, I feel helpless. For me it is a fit. The thing is I am partly conscious, but drift to blackout whenever and I don't or hardly remember the in between the lapses. Confession for confession, it does freak me out to loose the control of my body all of a sudden like that. If anyone knows about epilepsy and how to deal with it daily please get in contact to share your experiences. Only when I told my Mum that I suffured from seizures, she told me that her mother who died before I was born, when my Ma was only eight or ten was epileptic. Now I am 44 going to be 45 in a few days, I fainted only once when I was young ( Before an exam) but it took a long time for me to gather back consciousness. But after that episode, NADA! I was always fine, until the two head incidents of the past weeks. Two neurologists are dealing with my case to find out the A+B= C. Tests have been done, more will be done. But I just want to know how to deal mentally with the control of your body. How do you cope? That is all.