Shout in the darkness of the night.

It is not a surprise for anyone that I am unwell. I am a Cocktail of whatever: F'ed up genes, Hypertension, Bad Asthma, Epilepsy, Seizures, FH, Exzema, Mobility challenged, Etc, Etc, Etc. Stirred in the body through and through but not shaken. Code name: 499 888 007-1. Can you talk? Ventolin puff puff to try to breathe and talk. Next one will you ask me to do a pantomine on the floor when I am having a fit. Struggle, struggle, struggle to move, breathe and try to stay lucid. It is a fit. Blackout. 

Best of luck paramedics come. The loudest one decide you are faking it or doesn't like the f'in shit of you or you did loose lots of loved ones and couldn't deal with the pain, hence did drink a bit more than usual then you tried to get yourself better, dry January and all sort. But no! The Big A is on the file. You are not a patient any longer, you are a waste of time even if you made all your steps to get better and you got worst instead doing so. There is the A + on your file and it is like an alarm bell. It is the A+ attitude to lets shall not care she did it to herself even if it was years ago and because of sorrow. Let's her having her fit, struggle breathing (we haven't got much/any funding for nebulizer at the NHS under BJ). We will use the oxigen for someone who may not have an A in his/her file. As there are not many we will still have our stach and hoarding the breathing help instead of helping the ones who desperatly need the care and someone to have a heart to care can't do so. It is the big word of the moment TRIAGE.

You are old: TRIAGE.You did drink during your lifetime: Triage. You have multiple conditions: Triage. 

There are other words: The Medic Linguo... 'The In and Out'. The less time spent the better. I will not sing to you the Pink Floyd, Another Brick in the wall but you must know by now the feeling.. Mince Meat, Numbers Crushed. Underlying conditions which we couldn't care for. We haven't the money although you paid your taxes for your care. This is the time we are living in.  Go private to be cared for a tiny bit: close: sell your house. Pirates of the carabeans in broad day light. Agree to it or die... Grim. You will die anyway because we want your assets... The Grimlins or the Grim line.